mE, MysELf aNd i!!!

Regrets

I know my blog has been non-existence all these while. It’s not like anyone reads it anyway, so why bother doing it rite? But I guess someone sort of inspired me to write a blog again. So here I am back on track. And I just realized that all my entries (not like theres many anyway) are about how depress ed and stressed I was. So guess what’s this entry about? Haha!bingo! how pathetic is dat? Bt yea. Here comes the stressed-out me.

Have u ever felt like u want to turn back time and change what u did? Or when u hope so badly that everything will be ok, but the worst happen? Or you know you can do way better but you blew it when it matters the most? And having all these happening to me and knowing there wont be a second chance. That’s how I feel lately. The images just hunt me coz theres no one to be blame except myself. And that’s just plain hard coz human nature is always to blame others and not one’s self.

The good thing about writing in a blog is that u don’t have to drag people into getting all stressed out with you by telling them ur problems.  Bt honestly, I prefer to do that. I cry, I want you to cry as well. Sounds pretty selfish. Bt hey, to me that’s what differentiate true friends from all those pretenders. So for all those who held the burden of hearing my nonsense, so sorry, but bear with me please! Need you guys to help me go through this. You should feel honored thou.  Atleast  ur not considered the plastics and fake ones by me!=)

My writing is all over the place! - blame it on the lazy me for not writing for what seems like forever. Ok, this wasn’t supposed to be such a cheerless entry. So the cheery side of it, Im going to Gold Coast this Saturday!!and my exams are done and over with! except that one bloody paper after hols that im trying to erase from the perfect picture for awhile. So hopefully the land of Gold Coast will bring me all the happy moments that I longed for. Gudluck to me and the trip! cheers!

im mad!

ok, i know i dun really blog that often now. but i just feel like i want to..because im pissed off for no particular reasons. im just mad!and i hate it when i feel this way..of coz there are a few reasons y im mad..but if i mention it, ull think im mad for being mad at those things. see how mad i am?!hahaha!very mad indeed....bt seriously, im mad but i dun noe how to let it out!!ok. now i really think that ive gone mad!!sorry for those of u who are mad at me for wasting ur time reading my meaningless blog..guess this is what mad people do..they waste time and make others mad as well!thats all for now.somehow i dun feel better!argh!!conclusion : hana is still mad!

mad  /mæd/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[mad] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation adjective, mad‧der, mad‧dest, noun, verb, mad‧ded, mad‧ding.

–adjective

1.	mentally disturbed; deranged; insane; demented.

2.	enraged; greatly provoked or irritated; angry.

3.	(of animals) a. abnormally furious; ferocious: a mad bull. b. affected with rabies; rabid: a mad dog.

4.	extremely foolish or unwise; imprudent; irrational: a mad scheme to invade France.

5.	wildly excited or confused: frantic: mad haste.

6.	overcome by desire, eagerness, enthusiasm, etc.; excessively or uncontrollably fond; infatuated: He's mad about the opera.

7.	wildly gay or merry; enjoyably hilarious: to have a mad time at the Mardi Gras.

8.	(of wind, storms, etc.) furious in violence: A mad gale swept across the channel.

–noun

9.	an angry or ill-tempered period, mood, or spell: The last time he had a mad on, it lasted for days.

–verb (used with object)

10.	Archaic. to make mad.

–verb (used without object)

11.	Archaic. to be, become, or act mad.

—Idioms

12.	like mad, Informal. with great haste, impulsiveness, energy, or enthusiasm: She ran like mad to catch the bus.

13.	mad as a hatter, completely insane.

p/s: i think the last meaning describes my state rite now clearly!

Things i miss in MALAYSIA...

Things i MISS in malaysia....

1. Zaza's company

2.Amal's hot gossips

3.Kimi's laughter

4.Qayyum's basketball practices

5.Ummi and Abah's leteran and bebelan..

6. My bed

7. Bibik's cooking

8. Laksa kat midvall kat jusco kat kedai byk bunge tuh

9. Lecka2's mango flavoured ice cream

10. Fish n Co's grilled salmon n seafood chowder

11. OU!!!shopping mall kat canberra tak best langsung!!dah la mahal nak mampos..

12. GSC N TGV!!cinemas kat sini hampeh!not that ive been to one of them anyway..=)

13. cheesy wedges kat kfc!!

14. tapai ngn laici..hehe..yum2

15. keropok lekor terengganu

16. my lousy old radio

17. my personal closet back in shah alam

18. roti gardenia

19. rambutan, durian, manggis dan langsat...but they have strawberries here!yay!

20. the whole atmosphere of being safe at home in malaysia where u dun have to worry bout wat to cook, or wat u can or cannot eat or jus hangging around with frens at midvall n have nothing to worry bout....waaa!!nak balik msia!!

there's no place like home...

p/s: to those kdu ppl who thinks i 4got bout them coz their names werent being listed or mentioned..dun worry, i miss u guys too..but the thing is, u guys arent in msia pun..=)

Greetings from Canberra!

Ok people of

Malaysia

!!!here are greetings from

Canberra

!!chewah..baru berapa hari dok aust dah ngaku org cni ek?nway, since its been such a long time since I last did a blog, I guess I wanna start again while I still have the time! Now we’re currently staying at a 4.5 star hotel(had to mention dat!) while waiting to move to our new apartment…which also happens to be among the most expensive apartments here available!syg petronas!!hahaha! ill be attending my classes by next week. At the mean time, we’re suppose to go to some orientation which we malas nak attend unless if there is free halal food! About

Canberra

?!!hurm..alright guys..have to admit it’s a really quiet place!!n im not exaggerating at all guys!it really is a dead town… n some how all the buildings here are squre shaped!!its like a city of boxes!!please..those of u who’s planning to be an architect ..well u better come here n do sth with

Canberra

!we desperately need u! but I have to say, it’s a really nice place to study.. the weather is really nice..n the place is very peaceful n nice..ok la..kalau bosan we can always go to

Sydney

!!which is exactly where we are planning to go this frday!!yay!!!cant wait!!k, if u guys wanna ask anything bout

Canberra

..feel free to ask.. chewah..mcm dah tau byk je..btw, mish everybody in

malaysia

!!esp zaza(mish the times we spent 2gthr!!), qayyum(bet tgh sunyi dok sorng kat umah!!xde geng nak main basket ek?), kimi,ummi, abah n semua sspians n frens!!thanx 4 all

ur

gifts n cards..thanx dimmy , leez n azhani 4 the notes!!u guys r just so sweet!dj n hawe..sdey tak dapat jumpe kat airport bt hope u guys keep in touch!piya!!i luv the bracelet!!byk dpt pujian!thanx3!FUZZY!!!!dun think I can make it la..but im goin to

Sydney

this Friday..tgk la camne k?tak kat concert, maybe catch a movie?yana, fatt, odah, mcau,zeti,merrotte,uted,mun2, mango,pau..thanx a bunch 4 coming!! n smue2 la yg sgt dirindui..sorry if I didn’t mention

ur

names but u noe im very grateful to have u guys as my frens..till then, news from

Canberra

!!hahaha..terase poyo gile!!

the daughter of the econs lecturer!

i wonder y i dont get the genes of my mom when it comes to doing econs!!!my mom has a phD in econs, n here i am!!!almost failing it!!!n its not even masters...it's jus some stupid mid term test that i scewed up big time!hurm...anyone wants to help me to figure out a concrete reason so that i cud explain to my mom??!!plz....im in desperate need 4 help!

the downs of my life again!

well... sometimes in life u can never predicts whats ganna hppn..but wat u can do is plan n wait... wthr watever we plan turns out the way we want to is beyond our powers...n sometimes we seldom 4get that not all things in life are just the way we want it to be... life is like a rollercoaster huh?once ur at the top...u're bound to be on the ground again... i guess dats wat is happening to my life now.. maybe wat i hoped or planned didnt really turn out how i wanted it to be... things are complicated... of coz people see me as a happy go lucky person... but inside..im not always that happy... sometimes wen im too happy...i tend to 4get that bad and sad things can also hppn to me... n sometimes wen im in my bestest mood ever...i tend to in the end hurt others unintentially... being selfish?well... that cud be wat some people think of me... but maybe being selfish is the only way 4 me to keep someone i really care n love... hurm...life just sometimes sucks like dat!

Did i mention...?

dID I MENTION how much i HATE exams?yeah.. i guess i made it  loud clear in my last blog.. but i jus have 2 mention it again this time.. i had this math n econs test yesterday... n it completely made me feel dumber!!i thot ur suppose to feel smart when u have so called "burn the midnite oil" 4 that test... n suddenly u feel like u read nothing once the paper is right in front of u... econs was a bit better than math thou coz i didnt study at all 4 math.. now only i realize that not much of the info of math got stuck in my brains after all these days ive been attending classes...n mind u, math class is sooooo not wat i call 'FUN'! n wats wif the lecturer??!woops...i jus dont like that one, but the rest are great!esp legal studies!!!luv that lecturer!bet mr anandraja will be so proud of me!!!i mean not many people get to be mention in my blog u noe... haha!k, gtg...till i write again...

tHe WOrsT tHINg iN LIfE!

well..i would say the worst thing in life wud be EXAMS!!!! going thru it is a complete torture!!having to prepare 4 it is another form of torture!!n u jus cant escape from it...whether u like it or not,u jus have to face it!!n it's never ending... i mean, i thot spm was like one of my very last BIG EXAM but nope!!more to come!!argh! y do we have exams in the first place?seriously,it's pure damage to the brain cells!!nway, im only like this coz my external exam is coming up in 10 days..so, plz 4give me!wish me luck ppl!!!i need them as much as possible!wokeh,wanna start digging in my notes!

NoTHinG??!!~

ok... seriously people!im bored!!i finishED class early today!!yay!yeah.. i noe its suppose to be sth to be happy about!!but when i came home... there's practically nothing to do!!!well, except 4 sleep...which i'll be doin after this... but except from that..... nothing!n i had my comp external exam jus now!!n like always it was sucky!!!i mean i studied 4 almost a week(not literally but still!) n the test was only 4 half an hour!!!n it's comp some more!!noeing that an IT idiot like me wud have a hard time understanding the terms n all... but watever!enuff of that... wat else to talk about??erm... yup! u got that rite!NOTHING!so...i guess ill just keep my mouth shut 4 now!

P/S: watch batman begins yesterday!but we got the front row seats!!wow!how lucky!i came out of the cinema having headaches!but atleast i had the advantage of being not so tall like some people! =) so, u see...it's not so bad being petite!it comes in handy at times!

oh MY god!

Oh me god!this week seems to not turn out that well... im stuck with the flu.. AGAIN!yea2 i noe... its normal 4 me 2 have flues...i mean 4 those who lived with me like my family, my ex-dormates( zaza esp!hahaha) N not to 4get my current so called aPARTMENt-MatE-aMAL! They got tired of it... their ears are almost immune to hearing me sneeze every 5 secs!so, sometimes they have a hard time to differentiate whether im really2 really sick, or its just another of my everyday sneezes!red nose is practically one of my everyday makeup if u noe wat i mean.. but this time people- IM 4 REAL!im SICK!n its really2 really irritating when u have a running nose!ok.. enuff of describing how sick i am.. i think u already get the picture... i cant believe this!my first entry in my blog is about my NosE??! wat the heck?!u must think my next entry is about my mouth!!haha~